Someone Else is Afraid of the Dark

Besides Armaedes(or Dirk the Feeble--as we now otherwise know him. You know the way Prince became a symbol) there are other people afraid of the dark. On the show Ellen, nevermind why I was watching it, Hillary Duff admitted to being afraid of the dark. To help her overcome her fear, Ellen gave her this nightlight that had fur and pictures of Ellen on it. I'm not so sure that it would make me more fearful to turn off the lights and see that shining from a corner or exacerbate the worse of nightmares.

This brings me to my point. It was because of this episode of Ellen that I've decided to admit my fear of the dark. This "fear" went on for the better part of my childhood and even manifests itself today. I can only watch scary movies with other people--the more the better, and only if I'm not staying at home by myself. I watched the movie "The Ring" and I don't know why, but that image scared the excrement out of me. The other movie that still scares me, "White Noise". Maybe "White Noise" was so scary because Michael Keaton was it's star, but now I can't fall asleep until all appliances are completely turned off, including my computer.

Last night I had a nightmare. In my dream there was gore, darkness and bludgeoning. I can't remember who was being bludgeoned or who was doing it, but I woke up whispering and crying out to the villains "where is your heart" in a stacatto-like rhythm. My heart was pounding out of it's chest and I was frozen for a few moments. I could feel my whole body depolarizing before I caught hold of myself and realized it was just a dream. I reached for the light switch, turned on the light and brought my mind back to safety and serenity.

I fell back asleep this way, in the glowing light. My safety blanket.

P.S. I would like to thank the mrs. for the CD that she made for me. I got it yesterday and it's got great songs on it!!! She took some time out from her busy schedule to make it and it's greatly appreciated!!!