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Thursday, April 13, 2006

Someone Else is Afraid of the Dark

Besides Armaedes(or Dirk the Feeble--as we now otherwise know him. You know the way Prince became a symbol) there are other people afraid of the dark. On the show Ellen, nevermind why I was watching it, Hillary Duff admitted to being afraid of the dark. To help her overcome her fear, Ellen gave her this nightlight that had fur and pictures of Ellen on it. I'm not so sure that it would make me more fearful to turn off the lights and see that shining from a corner or exacerbate the worse of nightmares.

This brings me to my point. It was because of this episode of Ellen that I've decided to admit my fear of the dark. This "fear" went on for the better part of my childhood and even manifests itself today. I can only watch scary movies with other people--the more the better, and only if I'm not staying at home by myself. I watched the movie "The Ring" and I don't know why, but that image scared the excrement out of me. The other movie that still scares me, "White Noise". Maybe "White Noise" was so scary because Michael Keaton was it's star, but now I can't fall asleep until all appliances are completely turned off, including my computer.

Last night I had a nightmare. In my dream there was gore, darkness and bludgeoning. I can't remember who was being bludgeoned or who was doing it, but I woke up whispering and crying out to the villains "where is your heart" in a stacatto-like rhythm. My heart was pounding out of it's chest and I was frozen for a few moments. I could feel my whole body depolarizing before I caught hold of myself and realized it was just a dream. I reached for the light switch, turned on the light and brought my mind back to safety and serenity.

I fell back asleep this way, in the glowing light. My safety blanket.

P.S. I would like to thank the mrs. for the CD that she made for me. I got it yesterday and it's got great songs on it!!! She took some time out from her busy schedule to make it and it's greatly appreciated!!!


  • Sweetie, it's not the dark your afraid of. It's what's in the dark that is scary!
    And quit watching scary movies. Isn't the nightly news scary enough?

    By Blogger Ranea, at 9:30 AM  

  • Destressing with Ellen were you?

    I only remember my dreams when I have coffee before I go to sleep. The last time I had a nightmare (also caffiene induced), I had just watched We Were Soldiers and the image of that japanese guy Jimmy was solidly in my mind when I went to sleep. I woke up dreaming that I was in a convoy of injured soldiers being moved to the military hospital. Very weird and scary, since I could also hear the cries of agony and see the graphic wounds in full color.

    I make sure that I don't have coffee five hours before I go to sleep now.

    By Blogger Grant, at 10:24 AM  

  • LOL...I LOVE the dark...I love scary movies. And White noise?? Come on, you were afraid of that movie??? I'm sorry to giggle at you, but i love horror movies...infact, in my blog, maybe in august..Long before you ever read, I wrote a 4 part horror series called Demons to some...Angels to others. You should check it out...its long, but quality.....

    And as for the Ring, my cousin is like you, she refuses to watch scary movies unless all the lights are on, and she knows whats up and coming...Well, I forced her to come see the Ring with me...she made me promise that I would sleep over that night, and when I didnt, she layed awake in bed until 6am. LOL!!!!

    By Blogger Princess Pessimism, at 11:48 AM  

  • You shouldn't sleep with the light on, as it disturbs the production of melatonin...tumors grow faster with this lack of melatonin in the body.

    Anyway...I love the dark, I find it comfortable and soothing. I also love scary movies. I figure if a ghost comes for me, there isn't much I can do about it. I might as well sleep well until then.

    "White noise" is a great movie, until the end.

    By Blogger The Phoenix, at 12:53 PM  

  • If I watched Ellen I would wake with nightmares too.

    By Blogger :P fuzzbox, at 3:31 PM  

  • you need that comforting music your friend sent you to sleep better tomorrow night. Sleep tight. We are watching out for you. xx

    By Blogger Chloe, at 5:37 PM  

  • I do not watch horror movies. At all. And haven't done since I was 22 (if you consider Silence of the Lambs a horror movie; otherwise, previous to that was age 11 or 12.).

    If I did, I had nightmares for 2 weeks and had to sleep with the light on.

    By Blogger Tea and Books, etc, at 5:50 PM  

  • You were watching Ellen? That's hilarious.. I love her, though.

    I can't watch scary movies either. I made the mistake of watching "the exorcism of emily rose" and oh boy... for weeks I couldn't sleep. Then I had to finally remind myself that I'm not catholic and we don't do exorcisms anyway! :) My thing is not looking into a mirror in the dark so if I have to get up in the middle of the night to use the restroom I hang my head down and avoid the mirrors. I'm afraid I'll look up and see a shadow or ghost standing behind me. Weird, I know. Even weirder is that if it was an intruder, I wouldn't be as afraid b/c I have something to take care of that (i.e. a .40 caliber) but when it's the unknown... ooooh.

    By Blogger LostInTX, at 6:49 PM  

  • I am nearly 29 years old and still can't sleep in the dark. A tv must always be on.

    By Blogger Lindsey, at 8:01 PM  

  • What a wuss!

    I may have cried when my dad's pick-up hockey team lost when I was a kid but white noise?

    By Blogger Big Ben, at 9:22 PM  

  • I remember you saying this before. I too am afraid of the dark. I always have some sort of light on in every room. Some of them are little night lights and some are small low light lamps. I have enough light in my room at night because of a street lamp outside that shines in through the edges around my blinds.
    Just can't help it.

    By Blogger Lee Ann, at 10:12 PM  

  • I used to be afraid of the dark when I was a kid, but it has been many years

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:38 PM  

  • I conquered my fear of the dark..once SALEM!

    By Anonymous Babette, at 11:59 PM  

  • It's ok to be afraid of something :-) I'm scared of spiders :-s

    By Blogger missy, at 5:13 AM  

  • i'm afraid of the dark toooo
    so i'm not much help...

    except i have the cutest
    smiley face nightlight...
    i could send you one?

    By Blogger Maddy, at 8:06 PM  

  • I watched Ellen for the first time the other day. I thought she was amusing.

    I do like scary movies though. If they are well-done---like the Ring. I agree, scary stuff. But only the first time. The scariness comes from not knowing what will happen.

    I sometimes dream vividly after watching one, but curiously the dreams are not usually terrifying even if they contain the subject of the scary stuff I've just watched. My mind tends to turn potential nightmare-material into comedic episodes.

    My brain's self-defense, I suppose. :)

    By Blogger Spider Girl, at 8:19 PM  

  • i used to be afraid of the dark, afraid of heights, afraid of scary movies. i don't know how i got over these fears, but strangely enough, i did. don't knock ellen. i like that show! hehe

    By Blogger joey♥, at 10:15 PM  

  • DANG IT. i'm sorry about your fear of the dark? what sort of night light do you have? those are comforting. Have you seen the little mini lava lamp ones?

    you need a nice snuggly woman to be with, so you aren't scared anymore.

    i would be scared if i woke up and saw ellen too. there's a lot of people who would scare me.

    By Blogger Badoozie, at 12:38 PM  

  • Happy Easter, Angel.

    By Blogger Cathy, at 8:35 PM  

  • That nightmare may have been a past life memory. We are multidimensional beings. At night we sometimes wake up elsewhere.

    By Blogger Alcuin Bramerton, at 11:20 AM  

  • I think I am scared of Ellen now.

    By Blogger mrshife, at 4:48 PM  

  • The Ring freaked me out too. The girl in the closet part was burned into my brain. I would have flipped if I was alone. I try and stay away from scary movies completely.

    Good for you admitting your fears :)

    By Blogger Liz, at 11:09 PM  

  • Wow ... you need to get yourself a nightlight. Or someone to hug you until you go to sleep !!
    I loooooove horror movies ... they scare the bejeebies out of me, but that is so much fun !!
    Hope your Easter break went well.
    Take care, Meow

    By Blogger Meow, at 6:41 AM  

  • Angel I have to come to peace with the darkness only until just recently. I had a spree of REALLY bad nightmares years ago, and only until not to long ago I was actually able to sleep in the dark. Maybe because I have the company of my angel (Tyler) and hubby. I don't know. But I know that fear of the dark is def. understandable.

    By Blogger Cari, at 8:16 AM  

  • An Ellen nightlight, now that is scary! I think everyone is afraid of something...I personally am afraid of snakes an I think clowns are pretty sketchy too.

    By Blogger Etchen, at 10:58 AM  

  • LOL Well, at least you have a pretty normal fear. I am not even admitting my fear.

    And I never watch scary movies, they only come back to haunt me on camping trips while I am trying to go to sleep.

    By Blogger Emily, at 11:15 PM  

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